Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Confession

I have to tell y'all...I wrote a blog post somewhere else. Is that bad?

I don't have a perfect excuse, just a desire to get writing again. I kinda want to start fresh...like with an introduction of who I am and everything. My blog feels VERY stale and I don't know how to get it going again. And I have a tendency to just wipe the board clean to get a fresh start on difficult things.

Can I start fresh here when the blog is so old?

So I stuck my toes in the water of a local online magazine. I gave a very general overview of who I am. We'll see if anyone gives a rip and responds. If they do, I'll probably write more soon. If they don't, my shadow will probably not darken the doorway again.

Those of you who REALLY know me know I'm a words-of-affirmation gal and I'm antsy for comments whenever I post something. In fact, I don't post anything unless I think it might get a nod or two. Otherwise, why waste your time or mine? But the truth is, I just don't know what to write any more! I'm not funny enough to make my cluttered life interesting enough to read, and the potentially discussion-sparking posts are often out of the interest-spectrum of my regular readers.

So, I'm handling this like I handle a cluttered closet. I'm just starting over...but in this case, I'm testing a whole new closet instead of tearing stuff out and re-organizing. Sometimes that is easier.

Chances are high that the other blog flops. I'm not sure the readership is very strong yet... And I might regret starting it any way. I just feel like it would be more acceptable "there" to be cheesy and boring :) People might even respond to it.

OK, that's helped me pinpoint my struggle here..y'all are an intimidating audience! That's it! That's why I feel the need to move! So many of you are EXCELLENT blog-writers and I know I don't cut it. I guess I feel a desire to go somewhere less cultivated.

Ugh. What a weirdo I am.